thoughts..
Feeling pretty messed up today.. guess what. I went to the ATM to widthdraw some money this afternoon. After taking the card out from the machine and then instead of taking the money.. i just left nonchanlantly. I plain forgotten to take the money. I guess whoever comes to use the ATM after me is $20 richer. Lucky guy :)
Afterwhich, i went to Island Creamery at Serene Centre to get some icecream. I got myself a homemade single scoop mango icecream on a cone.. Audrey!! see this.. its MANGO!!! .. its pretty good actually, if theres a chance.. i will bring you guys here. Then while walking happily to the bus stop, licking my icecream with the enthusiasm of a 3 year old kid.. the mango icecream suddently took a leap off the cone. In the end.. the sidewalk had the last laugh and ate the icecream by itself. poor lil' mango icecream spend the rest of its life melting slowly into a pool of viscous yellowish pool of mango under the afternoon sun. Crapz... Today is certainly not my day.
Indeed..saw the NTU appeal letter when i came home from duty today. The letter felt abit thin.. i guess i don't need to elaborate any further on the appeal outcome. You guys should know the answer already. NUS and NTU.. goodbye to both of you for now.
Sometimes you guys might find that i'm always bitching about my life.. about why i can't make it to local university.. why i can't go overseas university.. why i don't want to get a correspondent university degree like with MDIS.. why i don't want to go SIM.. and why am i closing doors on myself like fiona told me once. But i shall speak out my heart tonight and share with you guys my thoughts and whims.
My grades have always been Bs all the time.. except for the last semester where i actually put in a wee bit more effort to scare all As except for one. Think about it.. in my first year where i failed my maths.. i actually retook the module the next semester on top of my usual modules, meaning i had 1 extra module and exam to tackle.. still i manage to clear everything and restart on a clean slate to graduate with everyone at the same time. How many people you know actually did that?
With my GPA of 3.14... its neither here or there. Although i have a fantastic CCA record, it doesn't matter anymore. People without any CCA records can make it to university too. I've tried the singular talent admission criteria thingy (or what is it called?).. but it did not work. I still got rejected by NUS/NTU in both initial applications and appeals for 2 years.
Next, why i don't go aussie university. Its a monetary thing. My parents can't even pay for normal household bills sometimes. Ever tried waking up in the morning to find water doesn't flow from the tap? So it means i have to take a bank loan in order to go overseas which also means i will have to spend most of my life after graduating to repay my loans.(considering i still have a poly loan to repay)When will i be financially independant?? I'm already technically considered a bankrupt. I do not have the luxury of parents paying for my education which some people do. I dunno how long i will take to repay my loans.. i'm a man.. i have the resposibility in the family. How can i settle down when i not even financially stable? How long will i take to be financially stable? I might be thinking too far here.. i don't even have a relationship yet.
Fiona, thanks for telling me about the CQU degree course your friend took. It gave me more options to ponder on :) But.. i decided against taking it. Firstly, its not recognized...nobody ever heard of a Central Queensland University. It does not matter if the exams are hard.. its still theoretical stuff.. do they provide me quality laboratory hands-on? Even NP have better lab facilities. You mentioned your prof said that any bio degree is sufficient. But that only works if you are the only person applying for that job. How do i compete with other potential candidates holding NUS/NTU degrees, Unimelb/UQ degrees? Audrey.. Thanks for introducing me UWA degrees at PSB too.. :)
Why i don't go SIM?.. simple.. im not interested in business. Unless i convince myself in the near future.. i might. :)
In conclusion, i'm a person who thinks alot about the decisions that could possibly turn my life around for better or for worse. I'm don't simply just close doors on myself without giving much thought about them. I do consider my options and continue looking for more. I practically think about all this everyday.. yes .. i mean everyday. Sometimes i wish i was a more simple-minded person... i guess i would be more happy :)
1 year left before ORD to think. Please leave me some comments for me to think too.
*ThAnKs~
